Meditation with 24 breath

Today I wanted to do the Reiki healing before the meditation, but father told me to do the breathing exercise.

I competed the 24 breath and concentrated on the third eye.  When even my mind stated to wander,  my closed both my nose for few moments.

Father told me to do the Reiki healing before and after waking up.

I realized that all the sorrow I have been going through was because I felt that my father couldn't fill my heart.  Today I realized that he could fill my heart and make me complete.

I just have to insist on hearing and knowing him just like a innocent kid.

I have to eat less and pray before eating any food.  Making Reiki a habit would be good as well.

I read the chapter on "cosmic vibration speaks all languages "

Distracting throughts

Today's meditation was simple.

I tried to wake up at five but it is still hard more me,  may be I will start with six and then slowly move to 5.

I read a chapter on how to talk to God and meditated upon it for some time.  It was good,  I cook of hear the ohm in my breath for few minutes and then I got distracted by my thoughts. I poyilla my self into the meditation.

After that I did few sessions of alternative breathing, but could not complete the twelve breaths.

From next day  I will do the 24 breath cycles.

My divine father is constantly talking to me through his cosmic vibration, the reason why i am not able to hear him is because my spiritual receiver is not fine tuned.

Meditation is the best way.

I need to concentrate more on the avoiding distractions,  is it a good idea to buy a counter?

Meditation with father

Today I came back to bangalore.

When I was at home, I didn't see the need to meditate.  I was caught in the Maya created by my father.

But when I came back to bangalore,  I got his clear messages again.

I think I will be able to hear him better when I am alone. I will go searching for him when I am alone. He would be my companion when I am alone.

In today's meditation I read the book "How to talk to God " then meditated upon the chapter "one with God,  one with God's power ".

In the chapter,  guruji told me about my divine father.

About his powers and how if I could have the same abilities as my father of I unite my consciousness.

My father become personal when he created the material world,  everything is him.

He created the cosmic matter, consciousness, and energy. Just like the human body,  energy and casual body.

I am truly one with my father.  I have to remind my self in every breath.

The meditation was good I could bring back my focus every time it strayed away from my focus.

After mediating about the chapter,  I did the alternative breathing.

I lost my focus couple of times,  but it was good.

Why am I mediating?

Today I had an interesting Meditation.

I started off with the breathing techniques and then when I started to do the spinal breathing,  I realized that I was not ready for it.

I would focus on the third eye for some time from the pressure left from the fingers after the breathing exercise.

The most interesting thing about today's meditation was that I started asking the question

Why do I want to meditate?

It gave me interesting answers Everytime.
But one answer was constant,  to know my divine father,  to hear him,  not just internally by from outside.

It was wonderful,  I will keep asking this question when ever I get distracted.

I want to know my divine father.

Today I read the first chapter from the auto biography of a yogi.  But i couldn't analyze the reading.  Maybe tomorrow.

I know my divine father will talk to me.

Concentration

In the meditation,

I tried to concentrate simply on the spiritual eyes.  But i couldn't focus for a very long time.
Thoughts kept coming to me.

I tried the alternative breathing technique and spinal breathing technique.
I was able to concentrate on the third eye for sometime.

The improvements I am thinking of are
To state with breathing alternative,  this will give me focus on the spiritual eye for sometime.

Then try to talk to divine father.

While doing the first breathing, think and analyze on what you have read.

When you start to get distracted, do the the spinal breathing.

Again focus on the spiritual eye,  if you want hold both hands in such a way that the thumbs meet at the spiritual eye.

After the spinal breathing do the aum chanting in until the end.

Before the meditation pray to the divine father and saints to guide you.

After the meditation ask them to be with you for rest of th he day.

Detachment

In the meditation I started practicing detachment.

Even ever a thought comes to my mind,  I ask myself to detach from them.

Call out for achan in the meditations.

For this week keep the message of detachment strong by detaching from the desire of food.

Some people are better off without a life partner

Acha,  divine father,

Some people are better to the world with out any martial ties.

I think I am one of them

Today I am sitting in the hospital to consult the doctor on my worsening cold and sneezing.

I am hear the cries from two ladies whoes mother just passes away.  I can feel the pain in their cry even thought I can't understand their native kannada.  Those are coming from their heart.
It touched a deep part of my heart,  where once on a Saturday early morning,  a younger me was crying just like that in front an ICU.

A man is not supposed to show his tears,  the world taught me.

My father was only 56 when he left me.  I am almost half way there.

Sometimes I think my father should not have married. 
Acha, you are not to be blamed,  you did not know what was the responsibilities that are going to be thrusted on you .

He didn't have the strength to face the life when everything turned against him.

People should not get married because society thinks they are ready.  They should get married when they know they are ready,  to keep their loved ones happy,  to life for others and to take on more responsibility than their own.

I am not going more than you Acha.

May be you have planned for my life with purpose that requires me to alone.

What ever it is Acha,  I accept it.

Please keep her happy.

How to concentrate during meditation

July 18,2015

The meditation is now a habit for me,  I am sitting to meditate every day for 30min.

The most challenging thing is to stay focus on the stillness.  My mind keep wandering around every few minutes and I realize it every late.

Today I did the Aum chanting only for few minutes and then tried out a hybrid on the alternative breathing technic and the Aum chanting. But it was not very effective and I stopped after few minutes.

The next thing I tried out was the breathless state.  The breath would be stopped and I try to focus on the  manipura Chakra.  Even that was not very effective. 

I have to consult a doctor to fix my breathing problem so that I can breath more freely from the next day.

To find my father Aum

July 16,

I have been trying to find the right  meditation for me.  I tried meditating  with yoganada's aum chanting and I would not concentrate for a long time.

Today I learnt the alternative breathing technique and spinal breathing technique.

I realized today that I M still not ready for them,  I need to continue with the aum chanting for more time maybe for the entire month of July.

Clearly have not yet developed the concentration required for the advanced stages.