Some people are better off without a life partner

Acha,  divine father,

Some people are better to the world with out any martial ties.

I think I am one of them

Today I am sitting in the hospital to consult the doctor on my worsening cold and sneezing.

I am hear the cries from two ladies whoes mother just passes away.  I can feel the pain in their cry even thought I can't understand their native kannada.  Those are coming from their heart.
It touched a deep part of my heart,  where once on a Saturday early morning,  a younger me was crying just like that in front an ICU.

A man is not supposed to show his tears,  the world taught me.

My father was only 56 when he left me.  I am almost half way there.

Sometimes I think my father should not have married. 
Acha, you are not to be blamed,  you did not know what was the responsibilities that are going to be thrusted on you .

He didn't have the strength to face the life when everything turned against him.

People should not get married because society thinks they are ready.  They should get married when they know they are ready,  to keep their loved ones happy,  to life for others and to take on more responsibility than their own.

I am not going more than you Acha.

May be you have planned for my life with purpose that requires me to alone.

What ever it is Acha,  I accept it.

Please keep her happy.